You have always misread me.
So you say, TT. And the feeling is mutual. Therefore, I will stop wasting the time of all of us here trying to understand sentences, even paragraphs and posts, which, IMO, are incomprehensible, and I will move on in the NOW. I cannot honestly say that it has been fun. It hasn't!

It is "just an experience of what is"--as Tolle would put it. As an old Kenny Rogers song, about playing cards, goes: "You got to know when to hold, know when to fold them ..." It is like knowing when to surrender. TT adds
As you said, you don't know me (TT) ...
All I know is what I read in your posts--with not one item of bio. And, unless ... well, we will leave it at that. On to other things.