So do you not believe in The Plan and The Designer because if you do not, and it seems to me that that is what you are saying, then you believe in chaos. Although in your usual "having a bet each way" I see you refer to the "process of being realised" as the goal of existence ie love. So existence =divine love (agape). Makes as much sense as anything else, perhaps a bit less than some. I can never understand why people who believe in their god have to bring the issue of its divinity down to mundane terms which we can all understand. Enjoy the mystery, puff the scented smoke, that's part of it. Really chaos provides all the explanation we need however.