There are always those who amuse themselves by imitating, poorly.
Or imitating and pretending, having practiced it to an art..
But the point of the OP was to enliven a conversation rather than to take credit for the thread.
TT You asked when I realised I thought there was no god.
Well what I was asking was.., if you had formulated an idea of your own about what you had no belief in, or if it was someone elses idea you couldn't connect to or were having the realization about.
Obviously in order to take a stand either for or against something, you have to have an idea about what you are for or against.
The thing about spiritual exploration is to understand your relationship to what it is you are looking at or pondering without it being determined by someone else. Having your own experience and finding validity in the reality of the experience rather than signing it off due to the skepticism of others begins to wear on a person. If you begin to allow others to think for you, and define you, then you aren't going to be in touch with who you are or what you can create and experience.
Rodonaia expressed an idea about his experience of God.."All I can say is that I now believe in the God of the universe. Unlike many other people, however, I have never called God the light, because God is beyond our comprehension. God, I believe, is even more than the light, because God is also darkness."
All of the Hindu and Greek Gods were visionary. Someone saw an image in a meditative state of mind or in a spiritual like epiphany, and gave testimony to the experience. If the individual was influential he/she prompted those who had no vision of their own to adopt the view and opinion. This is how religion begins. An enlightened individual has an experience of something that is beyond belief, but being that we live in the world of duality bound by limitations of language and the differences in comprehension, one cannot give another their direct experience or reduce it in order to bring the infinite into duality without distorting it or filtering it thru shades of belief.
All of the ancient sages point towards the infinite without ever attempting to define it or give it special acronyms to idealize it into a personal God.
The Advaita Vedanta (Teaching of the non-dual nature of reality) contains thousands of books which describe various experiences and understandings to the approach, with the inner and subtle senses, but never define the infinite into forms or belief systems.
Images and ideas shared by those such as Buddha and Jesus became a construct adopted by those who had no experience and decided to allow their imagination to assume the reality as well as the idea that their imagination was an exact match for direct experience and understanding.
We see this today in practice by those with religious title. They quote and plagiarize others of vision to give themselves importance and to find acceptance and value from others.
Spirituality is the experience of God without defining it. One can express their visions and experience but if God is infinite we can only bring back our vision and experience within the constraints of duality and its boundaries.
All religions are born of followers who adopt relative boundaries as the defining principals to bind God to both the personal ideal as well as something that can fit the collective consciousness and its ability to comprehend.
Exploring the infinite has no finality to capture and contain what can't be contained or captured.
I always enjoy hearing someone experience something and say out loud, "I don't believe it!" It just goes to show just how set a person can become in their ideas about themselves.
I asked a question before.. If an atom is 99.99% empty space, then what is it that we see, feel, hear..., experience, and believe in?